Hiiiii! 

Yes, I am a millennial and every single sentence of every email I write starts with an exclamation point! I have to go back and edit to not look like a psycho who is way too excited to talk to you. 

These pages are always so hard to write because as a projector we have penetrating auras (yes, a good enough reason to use the word penetrate). And we are here for the other, we see deeply into the other, but when talking about ourselves we are a little blind. It’s one of the reasons I love human design.

I spent a good portion of my life before human design trying, achieving and doing the thing that I thought I ‘should’ do. 

I found myself in a place where I had ‘made it’ on paper while spending my lunch break crying in my car. I was making six figures, had a 401k and a pension in the oil and gas industry by twenty two, but I wasn’t making any sort of impact and found myself having a daily existential crisis.

This can’t be my life, this is not my purpose, is this really it?

I truly believe that everyone is put here on earth with something that they’re meant to do and I knew that working as a cog in the wheel of an oil and gas corporation was not my purpose in this lifetime.

Which led to the guilt-shame spiral of I’m so lucky to be in this position, I know how many people would kill to be in my shoes. How dare I want more. 

So I did what any sane person would do and I started a side hustle trying to do something I wanted to do with my life.

Something that was fulfilling and successful, that allowed me to be an equal contributor to our household while also bringing meaning to people’s lives and making an impact. Something that felt like a worthy cause to spend my life on.

And I thought in order to do that I needed to be someone I wasn’t. 

So I tried that.

I tried that in corporate, and when I left corporate I tried that in my business and what it led to was more pain, resistance and suffering. 

When I found human design it was the first thing that felt like instructions back to myself. 

So I started doing things that felt like me. 

And I’m never going back. 

Outside of human design work you can find Lauren traveling with her husband Jeremy and spending all the time she can get at the beach in San Diego where she lives and likely, taking a new certification to help her clients create the futures they are designed to live into.